Divide and Conquer...

Here's what I FIRST thought was the reasons why I'm having these "Drama Attacks" as my girlfriend aptly named it. I had a lot in my mind at the time, so it fused together to become ONE BIG problem that I couldn't pinpoint. So took the problem apart, here's the problems that I'm facing (not in any particular order):

1.Home

- Crime rates going up really high

What things are going on around my housing area are really disturbing and very worrying for me.

-Nothing to do

There's basically nothing to do at home for myself or any activities I can do with my sis & mum.

-Maintenance

Everything is falling apart in the house and it's annoying and troublesome for me and me mum.

2.Financial

-Family

How to support my mum and sis and how much?

-Loan, ASB, etc...

I'm confused what to do about savings or if I should take personal loans (from where and the works)

-Myself

How much should I budget for food, petrol, my entertainment, savings, girlfriend, etc...

and When can I afford to get married.

-Business

I'm currently doing MLM(Multi Level Marketing) and I know it works...But how much capital do I need? Where do I get more contacts? etc...

3.Marriage/Love/Attraction/Whatever...

-My Girlfriend

Is she the one? If so, how long can she wait for me?

-Attraction

I'm currently attracted to a girl. There's a certain glow to her that I feel compelled to want to know her better. Due to the "Drama Attacks", I almost mistook this attraction to know her better to something more...you know...Thank God I realized!

4.Social life

-My friends

It keeps getting harder and harder to keep in touch with any of them since I started working. Everyone's busy doing something, so we rarely meet up.

-My ex-UM students

Many of my friends do not believed me when I told them I was teaching. And I'm worried sometimes that what I teach is wrong, so I have this sense of responsibility to see how things are going for them.

Somewhat attached to them since they're a group of friends and I think I wanted to belong again into one...

Well, that's all of them.
I had experienced something like this previously which is due to stress and combination of multiple problems to make it one BIG stress for me poor head, but it was usually short-lived and mild. This time it was stronger than I've ever felt before and lasted about a week or so. Why?

I'm a worrier, I worry a lot. A HELL of alot...one of my weaknesses. Thankfully, I found out the main reason why I'm having this "Drama Attacks":

I lack human interaction. My social life was becoming almost nonexistent (well, to my point of view). Although I have friends in the company, but rarely there's any conversation at all ( except for certain things about work, but that's all). Can't blame any of my friends since everyone has their own stuff to do...It's just not possible to hang out and chat as often as we used to.

And due to lack of any social activities with my friends, I got attached to my ex-student's group. I wanted to belong into a group of friends again...thankfully there's an exam coming soon for them, I can stop intruding into their social lives. I believe I went overboard in disturbing them (Sms-ing, calling them up, commenting them on friendster, etc) so I guess I should slow down considerably. I'll stop initiating contact, when they want to contact me, I'll be there...other than that, I'll not intrude.

As for the girl I'm attracted to...I would like to know her better if given the chance, but I have to keep my distance. I'm not keeping distance for my girlfriend's sake or hers, but for my own...

The other problems are still problems, but were not the main reason why I had the "attacks". It simply amplifies it. The problems occur probably due to the fact that I'm about to start my life and just opened my eyes to the world. So, I got scarred.

How to overcome my problems:

Patience

Don't worry about those that are out of my control

Manage my time for my friends, work, family,etc

Self-control/Discipline

Gym/Exercise - to release some steam

I learned something out of all this, and it saddens me that it is part of our lives:

The older you get, the less friends you keep in contact with...

It's not that you or I don't want to, it's just is...