Bored out of my mind

Haha...Something's definitely wrong with me...I'm writing another post...This is going to be a "rambling" type of post...you may skip if you wish...I haven't been acting normally lately, I think it started yesterday (damn, that was yesterday? Felt like ages ago...) It started in the morning...I felt...I'm not sure how to describe it...just feeling really down...told me gf thru ym about it...at first I thought it was because I haven't eaten breakfast yet and lunch would make me fine. turned out lunch just made me feel slightly better...than got a sms about meeting up with my 2 old schoolmates...I was excited coz I haven't met them for a very long time and I wanna know what they've been up to (refer to previous post) but before I met them, on the way back home, I got that feeling again...It really seems to...I dunno...demotivated? uneasy? unwell? I think uneasy is the best word for it...but I was back to normal when I met them...went back home, another friend asked me to hang out...I did...short while...then back home...slept...today...it was back again...chatted wif me gf about it...she called it my "drama episode"...hahahah...What? I'm having my period? and my hormones off the charts? hahaahhaah...had a good laugh about it...but still...it keeps coming back...probably due to having all this stuff in my head...marriage, loan, work, friends...think they jumbled up pretty bad until I dunno wut think...I told my gf something else...but she says I'm just making excuses for my drama episodes...hahaha...she has a point...I always make excuses...I think...The best sentence for me about what is going on right now is "I'm lost and so alone". lost because of all that shit I mentioned early...(look! i'm writing weird like right now) alone is because...i dunno...just felt very lonely...i meet & talk wif my gurl, my colleagues, my friends...but still lonely...shet...now I'm being "emo"...need to sort it out...need to take a breather...but when? when i'm free, i need to do stuff, see people, obligations and all that...when? I feel like i'm in prison but wif no cage around me...free yet imprisoned...or I may just be bored out of my mind...plausible but unlikely