Emotional Logic

It's been a really long while since I wrote anything here...reasons for this blog was created was to improve on my grasp of English...

Yet here I am...writing just to release all this pent up emotions...As I did before in my previous entry. I feel like lashing out at everything, but I can't. Because when I do, once I see it written down...I could see the logic in it...Why it happens, I can understand the reason behind those actions...Yet I'm torn to write it all down...to lash out...to scream to the world for its unfairness...heh, now I'm regretting what I just wrote...who am I to complain about injustice? There are people who are in worse conditions than I am...I know there are...Shit, now I feel stupid it down in the first place...but yet...I don't want to delete it...

I feel it in my chest, throbbing with pain...eager to spill out everything~ but I can't...I understand why people need to release...the urge to pour forth is strong...because I want it off my chest...I want to be free from this shackles that binds me from being who I am~

I understand what to do in this situations...yet I am afraid...It's been so long~ It scares me more than anything...I can feel it in the very depths of my soul...I feel lightheaded just thinking about it...can I ever be Forgiven?

I feel so stupid writing this down...but at least, it is some form of release...